Flight

Fleeing the scene at the bookstore
What is this Adderall good for?
I’m a freaking mess
All I wanted to do was give you my best

It was frigid that night when we were doing dishes
The first time I cried
You held me in the kitchen
You asked me what it’s like
Mirroring my teary eyes
It’s like a pain I just can’t describe
Can’t describe

Friday hikes followed by autumn storms
Terrified I won’t love you anymore
Go to your mother’s place
I’ll be bawling my eyes out all day

Sunday night with the Eagles on
Call you back at the half from my parents’ garage
You sound nervous with your tentative laugh
You joke, it’s a miracle I called you back

You said, I’m telling you, babe
Sometimes I can’t forgive myself
It’s day to day
Learning how to love myself
Medicate and overdose on revelry
So desperate in this hole where no one loved me

In my high school days
I hated I was lonely
The most vulnerable phase
And no one cared to know me
Those crazy partiers
Make me feel a part of something
It’s not real, but it’s better than nothing

Downtown trips to the eleventh floor
EMDR, tragedy du jour
Can we emerge as a new model
As we ride the elevator to Shot and Bottle?

And on the first of June
I sang to you my dream
And longed for it to be true
But now I really mean it
And baby, in the end
I’d run the whole thing back again
I won’t take back anything I’ve said
Because it doesn’t matter, babe
Just another phase
Run for our lives like renegades
From the lightning of midday
I’ll run with you
Down the mountain to
Evolution Lake or the Palisades
Palisades
Palisades
Palisades
Palisades